My desires are good, right, true, and divinely given. My preferences matter. There is no judgment. There is no external validation for my desires and preferences – they simply are. I only need to listen and surrender. Pause, meditate, listen to your inner voice. Ask for spiritual guidance. I release the need to search for the “right” answer or the answer that others want to hear.

Do you ever feel like someone asks you a question but they are not really listening for the answer? They ask and seem disconnected as you answer. I find that this really affects how I can speak up and tell my truth. Coming home triggers old stories and old traumas. And I find that each time I come back with a clearer awake and aware perspective – I learn more, I see more, and I behave differently. I release the need to do things for others to be loved. I do for others out of love, generosity, and gratitude with no expectation of receiving anything in return. I love freely as I am connected to infinite source love energy. I see my own power – I do not need to take it from others. I embrace my feminine energy and all that means for how I intentionally go through the world. I release the helpless, rescue story. I am free.

The unspoken rule in my family of origin has always been conform, please, perfect, and maintain status quo. There is also a spoken story of independence, making it on your own, and do things for yourself. Then it is spoken – “I would not do that.” The overlying consequence is that I never formed my own identity in order to conform to the identity of the tribe so as not to be socially isolated. Yet, I found myself lonely and increasingly isolated from my authentic self. I stopped asking questions and began slowly dying inside. Now as I am coming awake, I see the consequences of poor boundaries, people-pleasing, and codependency. The consequence was that I became so tangled in believing that others know better than I do about my own life, preferences, beliefs, emotions, and desires – questioning everything I do and needing the external validation of others. I never developed my authentic true voice. I called in relationships that fulfilled this unspoken and double sided rule. I release the stories of the past. I trust my instincts. I speak up if I do not know my actual preference. I am the author of my own story. Awareness is a painful and beautiful gift. Unlearning fear. I release the bull shit unworthiness story. I know that my dreams are true and right. I trust in the future. I know how it feels.

TRUST: “I set my intention to trust in my abilities to improve my circumstances.”

INSTINCTS: “I act on my instincts and notice the signs and symbols in my life.”