I am beginning again with daily journaling about oracle card pulling and the spirit animals that have come to me so far outside. Let’s see what the messages of today are so far. Mosquitos and bees for spirit animals. Threads of Fate Oracle – Shadow Edition – Card of the Day – “Underworld.”

Underworld – Ether.

Given that I was instinctually leaning towards being alone today as much as possible to go inward and process the learnings of the past week and a day, this is actually a fucking perfect card. It serves as an invitation to go within yourself OR an acknowledgement of where you currently are. This card is asking you to acknowledge if you are in the underworld. It is asking to pause and to allow the things that need to fall away to do so.

In the underworld, it is trial after trial; empty and uncomfortable. We die and are reborn in the underworld. I have released a lot of shit and confronted a lot of emotions, places, actions, and ghosts. I have come face to face with myself – the good, the ugly, the painful, the light, the dark. The underworld is where the fire of transformation exists.

Surrender to the process. Surrender to being in the underworld. I choose to not rush this discomfort. I choose to not rush the transition. I have slowed down so far. I do not give up just because it is hard. I do not give up when I feel overwhelmed. I do not do what is just “easy.” I do not do what is just “cheaper.” I give myself permission to be in this in-between space and to welcome these changes as much as I can.

The card says – “when we are in the underworld we need to just be there without anticipation of rebirth.” I am simply here. I must just be in the underworld – where I am at. I surrender to the discomfort of having released. I surrender to the discomfort of emptiness. I surrender to the fear of really looking at myself and loving myself for who I actually am. I have everything I need right now.